My Whole30 is Tainted

Body Image, Body Positviity, Cooking, Increase, Marriage, Whole30

So the past few days have been difficult. The hardest thing to overcome was the fact that I broke my Whole30. Broke, but not quit! Unfortunately this past weekend I ate something that made me very sick, I couldn’t keep anything down. So, I didn’t know what else to eat besides toast. So I had a piece of toast. I don’t know how far off this threw my progress, but it was an executive decision.

Okay I am literally laughing over here because 14 days ago it wouldn’t have been such a big deal that I ate one piece of bread because I was seriously averaging like four pieces a day. So, I am definitely learning– one thing being that I shouldn’t be so hard on myself. The Whole30 can be stressful as heck! Reading all the labels, meal prepping and explaining over and over to others (and yourself) why you’re doing this. Not to mention how you are physically reacting to the whole thing.

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Chicken, carrots, potatoes, onions and peas– YUM!

What I am trying to say is, I know that one piece of bread is against the rules, but I don’t care. My intentions were good, I wasn’t rewarding myself or giving into a craving (unless you count wanting to not throw up as a reward).

Some goals that I have had are conquering platefuls of cookies (as in saying no to them); conquering cravings, which sometimes seems like it’s 24/7; having great conversations with people about health and how the food they eat affects their bodies, one lady has even got the Whole30 book herself; and finding new recipes that I actually really love. Also, my skin is much clearer and my stomach is getting flatter.

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C ya cookies

MAJOR shout out to my husband. He helps me tame my sugar dragon, and any other dragon that I might have. He is definitely my number one supporter. He kinda has to do this Whole30 thing too since I cook all the meals. Hehe.

Thanks for reading!

The Whole 30: 9 Days In

Body Image, Body Positviity, Cooking, Increase, Whole30

What a ride these past 9 days have been. Honestly, I didn’t write because I was so unsure if I would be able to stick this out the whole 30 days. I didn’t know if my next post would be about me quitting and giving some “justifiable” reason. Or, if it would be about me overcoming.

I’ve literally cried because I have been frustrated with what I can’t eat, then I get even more frustrated when it hits me how emotionally connected I was to the food I have given up. But there’s also been times where there has been little victories which bring big moments of joy. Just for instance, we’ve had food brought in multiple days at both of my jobs. Food that included bagel trays, cheese trays, yogurt bars and even Chick-Fil-A. In those instances it was so hard not to give in. Or the day when I had a bad day at work and decided my husband and I would go out for dinner at this soul food place we’ve been wanting to go to (definitely not compliant). Yet, I have overcome.

So yes, I am 9 days down. But holy cow I have 21 more days to go!

I am definitely feeling changes in my body. Nothing drastic (yet), but when I sit back and focus on the way I feel I can see the differences. I haven’t had a headache since I started the whole30 (except the first day), I can feel my skin detoxing, I feel my body detoxing (use your imagination on that one), and my energy is climbing bit by bit. I’m also learning how to cook new things and trying foods that I have never tried before. This part has been fun.

However, today I was exhausted and bloated! I was happy though when I read the timeline to find out that this was totally number. I may struggle a bit days 9-12, or maybe even longer. But I have to remember it’s for the good. I can’t give in to a moment of temptation (or desperation) and ruin everything that I feel like I have accomplished.

Here are some new meals I have tried: spicy Mexican tuna (top left), zoodles with homemade chicken meatballs and tomato sauce (bottom left), and scrambled eggs with peppers and compliant Italian spicy sausage (right). So yummy!

To those who have held me accountable, thank you. And to my husband for putting up with my break and sugar withdraws, thank you even more.

Thanks for reading!

The Whole30: 2 Days In

Body Positviity, Cooking, Increase, Positivity, Whole30

 

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Day 1: WAS HORRIBLE. Honestly, I don’t know if anyone has ever felt as discouraged and confused as I did on day 1. I wasn’t even upset about what I was eating, I was just starving. Also, I was tired from the jump. It ain’t easy balancing meal prep with 2 jobs.  So, I learned my lesson and planned for bigger meals for day 2 and accepted the fact that I am gonna be tired for a while.

Day 1 Breakfast: Spinach Fritatta, it was good. I plan to experiment with my own fritatta creations in the future. However, it was not as filling as I am used to. This is most likely because I am used to at least two pieces of toast (or an English muffin) with my eggs.

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Day 1 Lunch: Protein Salad, man, who knew that onions and grapes could be so good together? Yet, after finishing the salad I was far from satisfied. This is most likely because I am used to stealing a piece of candy from the kitchen at work after my lunch, and I have been eating huge lunches recently. This also threw me off throughout the rest of the day. I felt SO sluggish and got a headache. Thanks alot, protein salad. Just kidding! I know my body still has to adjust.

Day 1 Dinner: Ground meat with roasted tomato sauce and spaghetti squash, finally, something that filled me up! I have ate this combo before (but with store bought sauce which included sugar), so I was used to the taste and thankfully wasn’t expecting it to taste like spaghetti. Yet, after my shift was over (I’m working a full time job during the day and working retail night) at 9:30 I was pretty much starving again.

Day 2 has been much better. I’m snacking throughout the day a bit on fruit and nuts and I have packed larger meals– all still compliant.


I’m so happy that the Whole30 book is completely honest about how you’ll feel across the whole 30 days. I know I am not going to feel like sunshine and rainbows this first week. I know that I will be tired and will still have my cravings. But, it has to get worse before it gets better!

I also love the way I am learning to cook. I know, I know, it has only been 1.5 days but I can already see new habits forming. However, making compliant mayo is not one of those. Hehe, let’s just say my attempt at this turned out wrong, so wrong. So, for the time being I will spend the few extra bucks on compliant condiments.

I probably won’t do an update every day going forward– just when I feel like I am experiencing changes or difficulties.

Who else is doing the Whole30 this Feb? Who has suggestions or tips? I’d love to hear more from past and present Whole30ers!

Gearing Up for the Whole30

Body Positviity, Cooking, Increase, Positivity, Whole30
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Obviously happy about my purchase.

So as you can guess from the title, I have FINALLY made the decision to do the Whole30. I first learned of the Whole30 this summer from my cousin, and after reading the rules I thought she was crazy for even considering it. However, the Whole30 kept popping up in random ways. One day I was at Half Priced Books and the Whole30 book was there so I decided to pick it up to read a little more on the plan. After the first chapter I was hooked!

Just reading the book taught me so much about the way I treat food and the effects that different food has on my body. For instance, I never knew that grains can cause inflammation which leads to headaches (I struggle with migraines). Or, that dairy products cause a surplus of estrogen to be produced within our bodies which can cause, in some extreme cases, cancer. I was have taken an apathetic attitude to eating healthy. I think, well if I eat at least 75% healthy throughout the day then it’s okay if I pig out for dinner, especially if I go to the gym the next morning. I was never thinking of the long term physical, emotional and physiological effects the food was having on my body.

I am 70% excited and 30% nervous for the Whole30. There are so many resources that give great recipes or whole meal plans, so the cooking part should be easier. I am just nervous for the different stages my body will go through during the eliminations of these foods. Thankfully the book outlines a lot of what these stages look like. I’m hoping to get a few things from the Whole30:

  1. Find a catalyst for my migraines from the food that I eat.
  2. Reduce my bloating.
  3. Give up using food emotionally.
  4. The biggest one, make a whole lifestyle change. If I can get these healthy eating habits down now and continue them in the long run, then I have really succeeded. I will be in better shape, happier, and practicing healthy eating habits that I can eventually pass on to my future children.

Have you ever done the Whole30? If so let me know your experience. What did you struggle with most? What were the biggest benefits that you saw?

Naming My Year

Body Positviity, Faith, Increase, Marriage, Positivity

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Of course I have to make a New Years post, not because it is simply the New Year but because I truly believe God has a lot in store for me in 2017. My church, LifeStone church in the South Side of Pittsburgh, does a special New Years Eve service. The service is called the “Name Your Year” service. This was the first one I got to attend because in the past I was always on Christmas break. Needless to say, it was inspiring.

In order to help us name our year my pastor asked us to answer four questions:

  1. What are you believing God for in 2017?
  2. What biblical promises are you standing on in 2017?
  3. What personal changes are you asking God to help you make this coming year?
  4. What word or phrase describes God’s work for you in 2017?

I want to lay out my answers. Mostly because it is a good way for me to visualize things, and because with someone else reading this I am being held accountable.

  • I am believing in God for a couple things in 2017:
    • An increase in finances, letting go of worry.
    • A successful relocation somewhere that is closer to family.
    • An increase of my sense of self-worth and/or self-esteem.
    • An increase of God within my marriage.
  • As for the biblical promises, I have already been circling a few verses that connect to this. But I think it’s important to highlight them again.
    • Finances: “God will generously provide all you need. Then you will always have everything you need and plenty left over to share with others.” 2 Corinthians 9:8
    • Relocation: There are multiple stories of relocation in the Bible. So I’m going to find one that I can really connect with and go from there. Possibly starting with the story of Jacob to Egypt, then reading up further on Moses.
    • Self-worth: “I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” Psalm 139:14
    • Marriage: God has such a special design and purpose for marriage (read Genesis 2), so that seems like a good starting place. This is a topic that takes two, so it’s hard for me to state scripture, or what I will and won’t do because my husband plays a big role in this part as well.
  • Personally, I want to be more disciplined in my time with God, my time in the gym and my diet. I will most definitely need the Lord’s help for this. I want to live a truly God first life. I believe that and discipline are very interconnected.
  • At first I thought my phrase for 2017 would be “God first”, however after praying about it, I felt as if the Holy Spirit was putting the word “Increase” on my heart. So there you have it!

Here is to letting go and letting God. It’s cheesy, but it’s true. I don’t have the energy or time anymore to always be in control. But I know that as soon as I let go, God is going to start the changes– I need this.

Lastly, as an effort to focus more on my relationship with God and myself, I am taking a step away from social. I’ve deleted Snapchat and deactivated my Facebook. I don’t know what this means for my doTERRA business plan, but God will help me figure it out. I want to begin to be more introspective, so focusing on my blog more will do that.

What are you changing this year? I’d love to know!

 

You vs. You

Body Image, Body Positviity, Faith

What I’m Diffusing: 3 drops Motivate, 2 drops Wild Orange

What I’m Eating: Frosted Flakes, because I’m making today great!!


So I think I talk a lot about what the world expects of us career wise, and life in general. But today I want to talk about what society expects of our bodies. Yes, this is a body positivity post, or at least a post that talks about trying to achieve that.

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My happy place! (The gym, not the gym bathroom.)

I have been blessed, there was never really a point where I despised my body but on the same hand there was never a point where I really stopped trying to better my body. For my 16th birthday I didn’t ask for a car or whatever 16 year old girls usually ask for, I asked for a membership to our local YMCA. At that point in my life I had quit all of the sports that I had played because I lost my passion. I no longer wanted to play sports because they just weren’t fun anymore, but that’s a whole different post. So, I became really inactive for the first time in my life, hence the desire for the gym membership.

My body began to change a lot. During my freshman and sophomore year I had a lot of muscle growth because of conditioning for volleyball, I grew so fast that I developed a lot of stretch marks. This became my number one insecurity. Then I also began to compare my body to almost everyone around me.

In college I got really into lifting. I tried a ton of different workout plan and completely drowned my Instagram feed with bikini and physique competitors, workout mavens, and downright beautiful women. This is who I wanted to be like, and I told myself constantly seeing these “goals” would help me reach my ideal body faster.

This was so stupid.

Literally, this made no sense. FYI to any girl reading this who sees these females on Instagram with amazing bodies, odds are staying in shape and going to the gym is what this woman does as her full time job– monetizing her workout and meal plans. It took me a long time to realize that the women I were idolizing weren’t balancing an 18 credit course load, working part time, living on their own, being a state away from everyone they loved most, etc. Not only do these women have time to go to the gym, they probably also had the money and resources to eat healthy and buy all of the correct supplements. This just wasn’t me, it’s not me, it will never be me.

I am okay with that.

I am made in God’s image, and that is beautiful. That simple sentence, that’s what changed a lot for me. Also the fact that my husband won’t let me be down on myself. Do not get me wrong, I still fully believe taking care of my body because it is my temple. But, I don’t hate myself after I eat pizza or if I feel too tired to work out I won’t. Or, I will wear shorts that don’t hide my stretch marks. For the first time in a long time I am okay with what I look like. That’s why I had cereal this morning, with cows milk (because Frosted Flakes don’t taste the same with almond milk). What I am trying to say is, love yourself the way God loves you!

My favorite verses on body image:

I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. — Psalm 139:14

For while bodily training is of some value, godliness is of value in every way, as it holds promise for the present life and also for the life to come.– 1 Timothy 4:8

Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body. — 1 Corinthians 6:19-20

Thanks for reading!